My Journey May 25

I will be leaving to go to Pennsylvania on June 6. We are leaving at night so the children will sleep most if not all the way. It's about a 7 hour drive.
I don't have to drive at all, and that's a good thing, because driving 2 and a 1/2 hours once a month really is very hard on me. I have to do this to pick up a prescription.

What worries me is that I have never stayed in anothers house since I was 13 years old, and I never visit anyone at their home. This is the only time I ever get panic attacks, so I just don't go to anyones home.

I am going to try and see how it goes, this may be easier than I think it will be because Mary and the children lived with me for way more than a year, and we are used to each other and rarely even look cross at one another.

It will be something for me to try and perhaps it will make a differance in my life. I will be traveling back and forth and hopefully I'll even be able to drive it all by myself after the first time.

I have to be here for the hospital, and the PET scansm Ct scans, the Oncologist, Rheumatologist, Surgeon, Opthalomologist and a few others.

Anyway, I can only try and hope that I can go back and forth and that my sister will take care of my dog. I am also worried about the dog-she has been with me since she was born and I hope that she will be ok.

Another consideration is getting my bills on time, don't want late payments, not only does it cost a lot, it could make the interest charges go up on all my accounts. That's a consideration.

I have decided to go ahead and order the laptop and not obsess about how to pay for it.

Tonight the pain is horrible again and so will have to grab the Kindle 2 and go rest.

I will have my own large bedroom, an area to use as my office and also, if I want, I can still have the finished family room in the basement for my tutoring.

It is also very large and it's in a closed community so there will be security. It all sounds great, just hope I can go there and not have a panic attack. That would really be rotten. But as I say Mary and I are close and maybe that will be the key.
And I'm free to come and go as I please , there and free to travel back and forth however I wish.