MY Journey April 30

FREE WRITE

Many times I'll sit here and just type away. I just type whatever I may be thinking at the time. I don't even look at the moniter, I may be watching TV or just thinking.

I mentioned this to my sister and she said, " It's good to FREE WRITE sometimes" I think she has termed a phrase for a whole new genre of writing.

Once I discovered that over the course of three nights I had written a short story. When I read it, it scared me, but the story was good. This story was published and even won awards.

So now , I'll FREE WRITE here and see what happens. I used to write in my sleep as a child, usually peotry and some ot that has been published also.

Today I went to dinner with my grand daughter and her two children . The children are very well behaved and I truly enjoyed out time together.

We were going shoppin after that, but the pain got bad and I had to come home. After taking medicine and resting for three hours, the pain is still very bad,

People in Severe Chronic Intractrable Pain are not "Addicts" rather we are people who live in horrible pain and we do need medicine to help us get through the day.

I do get some pain meds, but not enough to actually help me function in any kind of way. Everything I do depends on the level of pain at the time.

Pain patients need the pain medicines and we are not crazy, liars, looking for sympathy, or just plain lazy or druggies.
The pain meds are not different than people who take medicine for high blood pressure or any other type of medicine.

We do not get high, out judgement is NOT impaired and we do need the help.

A Dr one said, "You look fine to me" after I told him the reasons I needed to adjust the pain meds.

I asked him, "Is "You look fine to me" a diagnosis?" Just because I look ok does not mean that I am ok. A Dr should never belittle a patient that way.

The ER is even worse , they make sure you overhear their little remarks like GOMER - Get Outta My Emergency Room or the other one NHI - No Human Involved.

I am speaking up loud and clear for all the people who live in pain. We are not stupid, not lieing, nor are we just seeking drugs.

If we are seeking more and better pain meds that means that the pain has gotten worse and we have a need and a right to be treated for the pain that we live with every day.

FREE WRITING thanks Carrol for this term. It is exactly what I do.